( if anyone knew how to ache and be awkward at the same time, it would be this cat--- the unknown enemy of all living ribika. there shouldn't be a question of whether leaks should live or die: the question should be how painful his death should be, regardless of whose hands his life may lie in. leaks has put himself in a dangerous position, being metaphorically prostate to this very good ossan. )

I understand that.

( but despite his words, the chroma did flow. he is a good and/or awful liar. )

This is not my first time being away from Sisa. ( which is deflating in and of itself. his hands now at his stomach, where he can rub one of his wrists in an attempt to steady his nerves. ) I... know how to control myself.

( most of the time, anyway. )

But I wonder if you know how to control yourself?