[ lan xichen is being so nice to him. why? (he knows the answer: it's because lan xichen is a truly kind person.) that's what made nie huaisang's final act so despicable. he'll make no reach to see the sect leader in seclusion, the last person remaining who was nearly as close to his da-ge as himself, two people who genuinely cared for him beyond all, because nie huaisang doesn't deserve to see him.
he wraps his arms around his knees. drunk, it's easy to feel sorry for himself, and the guilt that washes over him makes him hiccup until fat tears come to his eyes, and he has to take a wavering breath muffled in the silks of his robe. in any other situation he'd be able to hold himself together, but the strong, strong alcohol from festivities has left him feeling like a child.
nie huaisang does what he does best: he shakes his head, one, two, three times, face buried in his arms. ]
listen.
he wraps his arms around his knees. drunk, it's easy to feel sorry for himself, and the guilt that washes over him makes him hiccup until fat tears come to his eyes, and he has to take a wavering breath muffled in the silks of his robe. in any other situation he'd be able to hold himself together, but the strong, strong alcohol from festivities has left him feeling like a child.
nie huaisang does what he does best: he shakes his head, one, two, three times, face buried in his arms. ]