[ It’s almost heartbreaking, how nice it feels, and how much a part of him honestly just wants to give into it. To pretend Lanling never happened, that they’d just left Yi City, that everything between them was blossoming and warm and Jin Ling still had someone who he had grown to trust so much so quickly. He wanted it. He wanted it so badly he could taste it like acid at the back of his mouth.
How could his parents ever forgive him if he just let it go?
Could their spirits even reach him, here? ]
Don’t call me baby. [ Thickly. ] Jin Ling. Understand? That’s all you get to call me.
[ He hesitated and then looked away, red tinting his cheeks. ]
I’m bothered by a lot of things. This place, for one. The fact that no one remembers me. Not even you, and we were just night hunting together!
I just —
I want to know what I’m supposed to do when I like someone but I know they’ve done wrong. When I want to forgive them, but I can’t. When I can’t match up their kindness to me against what they destroyed. Tell me how to do that, and maybe I’ll call you Senior Wei.
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[ It’s almost heartbreaking, how nice it feels, and how much a part of him honestly just wants to give into it. To pretend Lanling never happened, that they’d just left Yi City, that everything between them was blossoming and warm and Jin Ling still had someone who he had grown to trust so much so quickly. He wanted it. He wanted it so badly he could taste it like acid at the back of his mouth.
How could his parents ever forgive him if he just let it go?
Could their spirits even reach him, here? ]
Don’t call me baby. [ Thickly. ] Jin Ling. Understand? That’s all you get to call me.
[ He hesitated and then looked away, red tinting his cheeks. ]
I’m bothered by a lot of things. This place, for one. The fact that no one remembers me. Not even you, and we were just night hunting together!
I just —
I want to know what I’m supposed to do when I like someone but I know they’ve done wrong. When I want to forgive them, but I can’t. When I can’t match up their kindness to me against what they destroyed. Tell me how to do that, and maybe I’ll call you Senior Wei.