It... [ Xichen swallows, looking up as he does rise, but doesn't try to shrug the hands on his shoulders, his own hands coming up to wrap around the strong arms. Instead, his eyes search over the (now younger) other man's face for a long moment before he takes in a shaky breath.
There are two people whom he can't doubt the meaning of. One of them is Wangji, because Wangji doesn't bother lying unless someone - one particular person - needs it of him, and Xichen can tell those situations.
And the other is this man here. His words push Xichen's thoughts away from their abysmal whirlpool, and for the first time in a good while he considers the situation clearly, under those sharp (beloved) eyes. ]
It... I cannot say if it is often better. But one time, your judgment was right and mine was wrong. It just... had very grave consequences, and I did not find out until much too late. So now I can't mend it, and I have been... stuck with the knowledge of how bad it got.
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Did you not miss it, da ge...]It... [ Xichen swallows, looking up as he does rise, but doesn't try to shrug the hands on his shoulders, his own hands coming up to wrap around the strong arms. Instead, his eyes search over the (now younger) other man's face for a long moment before he takes in a shaky breath.
There are two people whom he can't doubt the meaning of. One of them is Wangji, because Wangji doesn't bother lying unless someone - one particular person - needs it of him, and Xichen can tell those situations.
And the other is this man here. His words push Xichen's thoughts away from their abysmal whirlpool, and for the first time in a good while he considers the situation clearly, under those sharp (beloved) eyes. ]
It... I cannot say if it is often better. But one time, your judgment was right and mine was wrong. It just... had very grave consequences, and I did not find out until much too late. So now I can't mend it, and I have been... stuck with the knowledge of how bad it got.
Do you... really think it would not be my fault?