[ He wants to say, ‘you walked away. You let everyone poison you against me- us. And you walked away.’ He doesn’t say that though. It’s only a brief flicker of a petulant thought. It’s not fair. It’s something that they probably should address but saying it now would be spiteful. Billy is trying to be better than that. ]

I know. [ His voice is quiet, and it cracks but he keeps eye contact with Teddy. ] that’s that thing, Teddy. A part of me, a large part of me knows you would never do that. I still can’t reconcile that Teddy with the person I love. I’ve been back home- I’m two years ahead of you. I know what is going on between us home and it’s good. It’s probably the best it’s been. But then I come back and I remember...

[ There are tears in his eyes. ]

I had to learn to live without you. To live with- with the memories of a you that I really don’t like. I don’t think I can be what you expect me to be.

If you expect me to be anything, I don’t even know where your head is at. You wanted space.