[That’s the part he grabs onto, the part that brings a hopeful note into his voice. It’s probably the best it’s been. That means that this, whatever happened—
They can get past it, can’t they? Even if it’s going to take some time.
He looks downwards, unable to meet Billy’s gaze after what he’d just seen, but looking away doesn’t keep him from hearing the strain of tears in his voice.]
I did want space. But that was never about— it wasn’t about you, and it didn’t change how I felt. I needed to figure myself out. Maybe I still do, but I know I love you. Thing is... when I left, that was the only thing I knew about myself.
[He still hasn’t come to terms with who he is, where he comes from, his heritage, and the loss of his mother is still raw. All he’s let himself do these last couple of years is be Billy’s boyfriend— his fiancé. He knows what David had suggested, but there’s no part of him that wants to give that theory any further thought. Even so, it made it painfully clear that he had some soul-searching to do on his own if it meant he was going to be the teammate and the partner that Billy and the others all deserved.]
But I can’t... blame you if you don’t want to see me, after what happened. After what you’ve been through.
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[That’s the part he grabs onto, the part that brings a hopeful note into his voice. It’s probably the best it’s been. That means that this, whatever happened—
They can get past it, can’t they? Even if it’s going to take some time.
He looks downwards, unable to meet Billy’s gaze after what he’d just seen, but looking away doesn’t keep him from hearing the strain of tears in his voice.]
I did want space. But that was never about— it wasn’t about you, and it didn’t change how I felt. I needed to figure myself out. Maybe I still do, but I know I love you. Thing is... when I left, that was the only thing I knew about myself.
[He still hasn’t come to terms with who he is, where he comes from, his heritage, and the loss of his mother is still raw. All he’s let himself do these last couple of years is be Billy’s boyfriend— his fiancé. He knows what David had suggested, but there’s no part of him that wants to give that theory any further thought. Even so, it made it painfully clear that he had some soul-searching to do on his own if it meant he was going to be the teammate and the partner that Billy and the others all deserved.]
But I can’t... blame you if you don’t want to see me, after what happened. After what you’ve been through.