He started walking, if only so that Jingyi wouldn’t be able to completely focus on his face.
“We’re different.” Tightly. Firmly. He wasn’t even sure it was true, but... he needed to believe it was. The concept of being so easily replaced was a terrible one that he didn’t want to consider. At the last question he let out a hard breath, turning his head away, gripping his sword a little tighter.
“You should ask him that.” It’s not very fair to say that, and he knows it, the retort automatic. He clenches his teeth. Damn it. Why was it so hard to just be honest with Jingyi? He and Sizhui had discussed him before, he should be prepared. Instead he was still at a loss.
After a second: “If he feels even halfway as much about it as I do, then yeah. He would miss me pretty specifically.” That was putting it mildly, he hoped. But he couldn’t speak for Sizhui. He cast a grumpy look back at Jingyi.
“Why? Is that so weird? We’re allowed to be close.”
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“We’re different.” Tightly. Firmly. He wasn’t even sure it was true, but... he needed to believe it was. The concept of being so easily replaced was a terrible one that he didn’t want to consider. At the last question he let out a hard breath, turning his head away, gripping his sword a little tighter.
“You should ask him that.” It’s not very fair to say that, and he knows it, the retort automatic. He clenches his teeth. Damn it. Why was it so hard to just be honest with Jingyi? He and Sizhui had discussed him before, he should be prepared. Instead he was still at a loss.
After a second: “If he feels even halfway as much about it as I do, then yeah. He would miss me pretty specifically.” That was putting it mildly, he hoped. But he couldn’t speak for Sizhui. He cast a grumpy look back at Jingyi.
“Why? Is that so weird? We’re allowed to be close.”