He raised his hand to place it over Lan Wangji's and leaned against his touch closing his eyes.

"And I am happy with you," so why this kind of questioning? "But please, right now, tell me what you want, not ask for what I do. I don't want anything more than I did the other morning which was a completely different place than you. I can't imagine anything outside of our normal routines, what answer am I suppose to give? There is no new answer. But is there something new for you?"

There was so much he did not know, did not want to know. He would be fine just continuing on without thinking about it. Anything before he experienced it didn't matter.